I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
You would take my pain away
I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
When You walked upon the earth
You healed the broken, lost and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yeah, one day You will set all things right
When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me
They hold me still
Can I go home now?
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
He's givin' and He's takin'
Ok. So here's the scoop people...
So work has been really stressful and hard (hence the reason I've been MIA from most forms of communication). I just want to crash every night and not think about anything. I'm sorry if anyone's been offended by that. Anyway, I had a long chat with Jesus on the way home on Tuesday about how I was concerned that I wasn't exactly where He wanted me to be. I prayed for guidance in maybe striking a better balance, or being able to see that this was indeed exactly where I was supposed to be, or if it wasn't where He wanted me that He would make it very clear. The next morning, I got fired. Needless to say prayer has been answered which I feel so blessed about. The last couple months have been such a crazy ride and it's totally making me uncomfortable. At the same time, I know I asked for this. I wanted to be uncomfortable and I wanted to grow and that's exactly what's happening. I'm excited to see what happens. I know that God will provide for us as He always does and I know that He will show us where He wants us! I love that my God has given me that confidence. Andy's been blessed with a little bit of work on the side for this guy from our new church. That was really cool. There's talk of allowing me to stay at the hospital as a student for a while but the details on that still need to be worked out and I'm not exactly sure what to think about that yet. UGH! I absolutely miss my family and MY GIRLS!!! I want so badly to give Jenny a hug and hear Kaysi make a sassy comment out of the blue, and to hear Katie talk about something she's really excited and passionate about!!! I want to hear them all laugh in unison and then hear Amanda laugh at my laugh. I could go on forever but Jackson's has to go potty and Andy really wants us to go on a walk tonight. I'll keep posted more often.
So work has been really stressful and hard (hence the reason I've been MIA from most forms of communication). I just want to crash every night and not think about anything. I'm sorry if anyone's been offended by that. Anyway, I had a long chat with Jesus on the way home on Tuesday about how I was concerned that I wasn't exactly where He wanted me to be. I prayed for guidance in maybe striking a better balance, or being able to see that this was indeed exactly where I was supposed to be, or if it wasn't where He wanted me that He would make it very clear. The next morning, I got fired. Needless to say prayer has been answered which I feel so blessed about. The last couple months have been such a crazy ride and it's totally making me uncomfortable. At the same time, I know I asked for this. I wanted to be uncomfortable and I wanted to grow and that's exactly what's happening. I'm excited to see what happens. I know that God will provide for us as He always does and I know that He will show us where He wants us! I love that my God has given me that confidence. Andy's been blessed with a little bit of work on the side for this guy from our new church. That was really cool. There's talk of allowing me to stay at the hospital as a student for a while but the details on that still need to be worked out and I'm not exactly sure what to think about that yet. UGH! I absolutely miss my family and MY GIRLS!!! I want so badly to give Jenny a hug and hear Kaysi make a sassy comment out of the blue, and to hear Katie talk about something she's really excited and passionate about!!! I want to hear them all laugh in unison and then hear Amanda laugh at my laugh. I could go on forever but Jackson's has to go potty and Andy really wants us to go on a walk tonight. I'll keep posted more often.
Friday, October 1, 2010
TGIF
Oh man! Hardest work week of my entire life! This hospital is so much different than the one I interned at and they expect so much more out of me that I'm not really trained for so needless to say....yikes! On the upside I am learning way more and getting a lot of really great experience that I wouldn't have been able to get otherwise, the people are really nice and knowledgeable, and I have a job. Downside is 70-80% of the time I get asked "Do you know how to...?" or "Do you know what...is?" I answer no and I feel like an idiot. I get the feeling I'm going to need more training than they originally thought which makes me feel even more inadequate and they still expect me to talk to the doctors as if I know what I'm talking about which I don't really feel like I do most of the time. Bottom line is that this is really hard. I couldn't sleep a wink last night thinking of different senarios that could come up today where I wouldn't know what I was doing or talking about. I don't think I've ever been so stressed about anything. I don't know what else to say. I feel like I need a bright side to this situation...the weather has been beautiful and Andy and I have been able to spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other more since we've been here. Of course I would feel guilty about posting a negative post...ugh.
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