TGIF

Oh man! Hardest work week of my entire life! This hospital is so much different than the one I interned at and they expect so much more out of me that I'm not really trained for so needless to say....yikes! On the upside I am learning way more and getting a lot of really great experience that I wouldn't have been able to get otherwise, the people are really nice and knowledgeable, and I have a job. Downside is 70-80% of the time I get asked "Do you know how to...?" or "Do you know what...is?" I answer no and I feel like an idiot. I get the feeling I'm going to need more training than they originally thought which makes me feel even more inadequate and they still expect me to talk to the doctors as if I know what I'm talking about which I don't really feel like I do most of the time. Bottom line is that this is really hard. I couldn't sleep a wink last night thinking of different senarios that could come up today where I wouldn't know what I was doing or talking about. I don't think I've ever been so stressed about anything. I don't know what else to say. I feel like I need a bright side to this situation...the weather has been beautiful and Andy and I have been able to spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other more since we've been here. Of course I would feel guilty about posting a negative post...ugh.